Freya Stark to Stewart Perowne
September 16, 2008 by Carol
Filed under romantic love letters
Please respond to this in the comment form below because I need 10 comments to continue posting.Asolo, 19 March 1951
My darling,
Things are so sad and superficial between us that I have long feeling that they cannot go on as they were and have only waited to write or speak because I could not think that any trivial cause, or want of affection, made me do it; and also because I hoped that you yourself might feel this thing so near your heart as to make you speak before I left. I don’t Know whose the fault, anyway it doesn’t matter.
If it were just that the thing has failed, it would be simple. We are both independent, and we could separate and go back to where. I do care for you, but I have tried to take myself out of this account and to think of the whole thing without any bias as far as I can; one of these days I believe you will discover that you do care.
Let it be friendship mean while, and not just acquaintance. Half a dozen people around us tell me their hearts more intimately than you do. Better just to come and go as friends and that I will always be. There is nothing but true affection in my heart. I have kept this for a day before sending, feeling perhaps that I might not send it, at all but there must be a truth between us, and it is the truth.
Let it not make any difference to what we are to each other, such dear friends, and with true and safe affection, let it only take away what there was of pretence. I long for you to come here and you Know it is your true home.
Love, Freya
